Wednesday, April 9, 2008
Just went out with my Dear...chat a lot of things with him at MAC. Didn't know he was hungry still ask him out. Hmmm.. from now on will not go out with my dear so much cos everytime he has to spend money and I'm afraid he has no money left for his studies. His mother nag him & concern about him. Know that he got scolded by his parents because of me. My parents also ask me why I so late go home nowadays, so I say I stay back awhile more and do work. But, heard my parents conversation walking past the room, my dad told my mum to ask me to give her money instead of buying things for them or her. So, yup decide to give them money and share their burden despite I still need to pay my medical bills for next month. I am not bothered by money matters cos if really no money then I will not see doctor le ba. My skin worsen then just tahan or give up my life ba. Quite sad actually today, I understand what my dear means. Sometimes have to think of ourselves before others. Yah, think I am too sticky to my dear nowadays le. I 'm not afraid that he leave me or abandon me, just really treasure the times now when we are together. Who know's what will happen tomorrow. Maybe I disappear into the thin air. HahaHa..the air is thin..
Today ate too much, too greedy le. Ate 2 bread and carrot juice for breakfast. Lunch ate ban mee and drank the lemon tea. Plus ate one papaya to digest my food in the stomach. Guess I can't eat too much nowadays, stomach become smaller le cannot store so much food le. My dear is right, I don't understand him well and fall in love with him so fast in short period of time. Is the fact that my Dear can't afford to have a gf now, he has to save money for his studies. I felt quite bad that he spend money on me. Just love him as he is blur blur, cute cute de. He is a smart boy la. Dear no need to jealous about other life. I pei ni when u poor, no matter what I will be by your side. Cos I believe U will enjoy life later if U suffer now. And believe that my skin will be well again, suffer now, maybe later become pretty gal can wear nice clothings le. Now like a dumpling all bao from neck to bottom. Don't care what other see me as. I love my dear, don't mind pimples. I worse when my skin rot worse than your face pimple. My skin become red, painful when bath, like skin crack and can see blood and inside pink muscle. Used to it le skin eruption..haix..my life worse than yours, my Dear!!
*I love you*
{LOVE YOU FOREVER(: } {7:38 AM}
